At the beginning of this year, I quit my consulting job to work at a start up.
The hours were way better, I loved how laid back the culture was, and I was having a lot more time to work on my side projects. I thought I had finally found what I was looking for.
But then last week, something happened…
I won’t get into the details, but I got thrown a curve ball which made me reconsider if I wanted to continue working there anymore.
I was extremely conflicted because this was what I had supposedly wanted so badly, and, while I was enjoying the job, deep down, I knew the answer was no—I didn’t want to continue working there anymore.
Not because it was bad in any way particularly, but simply because it still wasn’t what I wanted. I was closer to where I wanted to be than where I was before, but it still wasn’t right. I tried to trick myself into thinking that it was, but it wasn’t. I was just too scared to say it.
On Tuesday, when I walked into work, the CEO pulled me aside into the conference room, and as soon as she started telling me why she started this company in the first place—to help job seekers find the right fit—I knew what was coming.
She told me that she could sense my uncertainty about being here, and therefore, she didn’t think I was the right fit. They needed someone who was going to be 100% committed to the company, and I wasn’t that person. She told me it was a very hard decision to make, but unfortunately, it wasn’t going to work out.
I was fired.
More than anything, I was shocked. I’ve never been fired before, so part of me couldn’t believe it, but at the same time, I felt super relieved. I felt like a giant weight had just been lifted off my shoulders.
It kind’ve sucks that I didn’t get to make the decision for myself, but it doesn’t matter. This is what I wanted all along, anyway.
I left the office with a big fat smile on my face. I couldn’t help but feel like this was the best thing that had ever happened to me. The truth is, I’ve been dreaming about this day for a long, long time.
So, what’s my plan?
Well, I want to see how long I can go without having to look for another job again.
I’ll be focusing on my blog (trying to turn it into a legitimate online business — hopefully launching my first product sometime in June!), and picking up as many freelance gigs as possible. I also just signed up for Uber. For some reason, the idea of driving random strangers around town has always sounded appealing to me.
People think that having a job provides financial security, but when you think about it, it’s actually the riskiest thing you can do. Your entire income is coming from a single source, and the rug can be pulled out from under your feet at any given moment. On the other hand, when you’re working for yourself, you learn to diversify your income and YOU are in complete control. The harder (and smarter) you work, the more you’re rewarded.
At least, that’s the idea.
I might be approaching this whole situation overly optimistic. I know this might not end up the way I’m hoping it does. I might crash and burn. Actually, the chances of that happening are probably pretty high.
But, I don’t know. The more I think about it, the less risky it seems. I mean, what’s the worst-case scenario? I fail for a year and then have to go back to looking for a normal job like everyone else in the world?
At least I’ll get a cool story out of it. At least I’ll know I gave it a shot. I figure now’s the time to try something crazy. I have nothing to lose and everything to gain.
I don’t normally watch UFC, but I heard a great quote the other day from Conor McGregor after he lost some big fight. He said, “You win or learn.”
I like that mentality.
If things work out, awesome! If they don’t, I’ll learn from it and move on. It won’t be the end of the world.
At least, that’s what I’m telling myself for now. We’ll see where I’m at in 6 months.
In the meantime…
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