I’m graduating from college in two weeks.
Just a few weeks ago, I was reflecting on how much I’ve grown in the past four years and I was feeling pretty damn good about myself.
But then one morning I woke up and felt like complete shit. I was in a terrible mood and had absolutely no motivation to go to class. Or to do anything at all.
This feeling went on for a few days, and the worst part is, I had no idea why—until yesterday.
Looking back now, I know exactly what happened. I was having a mini mental break down. Kind’ve like the one I had earlier this year when I got some bad news from the doctor.
Except this time, literally nothing had happened at all. No bad news from the doctor or anything like that. I was just freaking out about all the work that I have to do in the next few weeks before I graduate.
The thing is, I hadn’t realized just how much I had to do, and when I had that realization, it caught me off guard. And it hit me hard.
I lost my mental balance, so to say, and I couldn’t stop thinking about how much I didn’t want to do everything that I had to do…
Ugghhh… I’m so over it. I just want to graduate already… Ugghh… I really don’t want to do this… Uggghhhhh… I can’t do this.
These thoughts were consuming my mind and spiraling out of control.
This is a very bad state of mind to be in—when you become so absorbed in your thoughts that you’re not even aware of how they’re affecting you.
Fortunately, I finally snapped out of this hypnosis today by realizing that all I needed to do was shift my attention away from these negative and wasteful thoughts and towards something more productive. So, I started writing this post.
The key to being able to make this mental shift is a practice of mindfulness and attention. It’s about being consciously aware of your thoughts—being able to watch them pass by like a detached observer—so that you can consciously shift your attention when your mind starts going off on a negative tangent.
It’s impossible to feel on top of the world every single day. Motivation comes and goes. Some days are going to suck— sometimes for no apparent reason.
The best thing we can do is accept that these bad days will come and prepare for them, so that when they do come, it’s simply a matter of how long they stay.
We all get knocked down sometimes. The question is, how long does it take you to get back on your feet?
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